All About My Life

My Life Sucks

2006-06-12T18:27:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a while since I have written in this but, here we go. I thought everything would go good but I was wrong. Cary moved out to Utah without me, so now I don't get to see him. I should be going there soon to visit him soon. Also right now I feel emotional and sick. I don't know why but I am. I've been sick for the past month or so. I hate it. Everything that I try to eat all comes right back up. Everyone is telling me to go to a doctor but I don't know what to tell him. My doctor already wants to put me on anti-depressant pills, I guess I should just let him. I've come to learn that everytime something good comes into my life there always has to be something bad. Is there something wrong with me, am I doomed to live a life full of pain. Another thing is that I feel like Cary and I are somewhatly growing apart because of his move to Utah. And if Cary does end up reading this then I want him to know that I love him more than anything and he is my one true love.

What's New With My Life

2006-04-24T14:41:00.000-07:00

There hasn't been that many things that have changed but there are a few. I'm now engaged to Cary. He asked me March 10th. I was so happy when he asked me. Also we went camping the 22nd and it ended up raining and the tent started to leak, it sucked but it was fun. Cary finally took me off-roading (legally this time). Of course during that I broke the same toe again, so now its broken in 2 places. Oh well. Cary asked me to prom, I already have my dress, shoes, make-up and I'm going to do my own hair. All I have to do is get my nails done. Cary has never seen me in a dress. We finally made it to our 11 months, there is only 27 days until our 1 year. That will be the greatest. I'm gonna go now. Laterz!

Almost Every Month

2006-01-29T19:16:00.000-08:00

I can't stand it, almost every month Cary is grounded. It makes me want to beat my head against a wall VERY HARD. I hardly ever get to see him, but this makes it even worse. He is 18 and he is still getting grounded. How stupid is that? This world makes me so mad. I hate it. Sometimes I wish I was never born or that I would die. Parents drive me nuts, they try to control their kids. It's our lives, if we screw it up let us fix our mistakes, don't punish us for being oursleves. I mean GD. Cary and I really haven't gotten to spend any of our annivarsary's together cause he has either been grounded or not even in this state. Well, I don't feel like yelling anymore, I feel like hitting a wall (but I'm not going to Cary).

New CD

2006-01-18T17:55:00.000-08:00

My mom bought me a new cd. It's Fall Out Boy's new cd. I love it. Fall Out Boy is the best. I would love to go to one of their concerts but I don't have the money. Talking about concerts I am going to be going to a concert next month. It's Shattermask. I'm going to be taking Cary and hopefully Alan. I haven't been to a Shattermask concert in so long. I miss them. I can't really think of anytime else but when I do there will be a brand new blog for you all to read. Laterz!

OMG

2005-12-26T20:50:00.000-08:00

OMG I freaking hate parents. So, here's a fun little story. I was hanging up my clothes in my closet when I hit my knee on a fan, the same knee that I had surgery on. I got mad at it and it hurt like you wouldn't believe so I tossed it out of my room into the hallway and it hit the wall causing one of Cathy's (mother) pictures to fall and the glass broke. She started yelling and I told her that I didn't mean to. All she cared about was the stupid fan. God, I want to hit her so bad. She makes me want to hurt myself. I'm not talking about hitting something, she makes me want to cut myself. I don't think she has ever really cared for me. She only loves her oldest daughter and her youngest son. Never me. She has always yelled at me for stupid things. Well I'm gonna finish here. I don't really think anyone wants to hear about me horrible life anymore than I have to live it. I just can't wait till I move out. Then I will never have to see her again if I don't want to.

Evil Roads

2005-12-24T20:34:00.000-08:00

So, yea. Cary and I were talking some of our friends to their dad's house and when we were leaving we kinda missed the road and went down a hill. Lucky enough we didn't get hurt and the car was fine. Some people that had a big truck came and thankfully enough they had huge chains and they pulled us out. That scared me to death. Hehe, but when we looked back on it we just kinda laughed. And with me and my big mouth right before we went down the hill I was like "We're going to get stuck." We did. I'm such a jynx. I'm going to quit saying stuff like that. Well thats all for right now, see ya'll laterz.

First Blog

2005-12-21T18:05:00.000-08:00

Well lets see here, this is my first blog. Hehe, how fun, huh? Laterz!